Dun wana be spoilt brat anymore~

i am not a princess...
i dun deserve special treatments..
i have no rights to demand
no rights to be pampered..
i dun wana be a spoilt brat
not anymore!!
wana grow upp`
wana be mature..
wana be salt & light..
wana represent Jesus well
since young..
my family pampered mii
both mummy & papa..
had been a spoilt brat all along..
when mummy leave the family..
only left with daddy..
daddy still dote me alot..
when i am hungry..
He will buy me food..
even its late at nite..
when i complain that the hse is boring..
he will buy alot of my fav food
when i wan a com..
he buy for me..
ever since mummy left...
me & daddy quarrel often...
i always tot that i deserve more..
i tot that he owe me a happy family..
he chase my mummy out..
i always tot that he owe me..
often compare myself to others..
& i will tik that my daddy not good..
other ppl got mummy..
i dun have..
other gals have mummy to help them buy personal stuff..
me? gotta buy myself..
other ppl got mummy cook for them..
me? maid...
he dun allow me to visit my mummy..
he dun allow me to talk to her..
my grandpa curses her & bad mouth her..
my aunties are all so sacastic..
["eh...? ur mummy leh?"]
puke... y ask this when they noe??
my uncles are irritating...
["eh.. let ur papa re-marry ok?"]
pls lar... i din say cannot wat..
he wan to marry again den so be it lor..
but i dun wan mummy cry~
no more mum's cook...
i miss it..
how i wish that i can shop with her...
i miss the days when mummy bring me to jurong point..
daddy wait in the car..
these days...
i miss the days when daddy drive us & mummy beside him..
i miss e days when mummy scream at me when i drop her phone..
she was reali fierce..
but now... she was so gentle to me..
so polite to me..
i noe y....
bcoz she miss us so much.....
thats y she nv scream again~
we are not like daughter & mother..
mummy no money..
my family is quite rich..
she used to slp at hm and slack ard..
rich tai tai...
now she washes floor..
cant afford to eat a simple meal...
i rmber the days when i ask daddy
["i want a mother... can i have ??"]
i also rmber telling him..
["u have no rights over me, u took away my mother"]
& also...
["other ppl got mother... den me leh???"]
got angry & cry easily when my family broken..
when i wan something...
if he dun give me...
i will tik that i deserve it..
i wana learn something.. muz pay my own..
when i wan clothes muz pay my own..
i tot thats tis is his responsibilities??
i envy those ppl whose parents organise everything for them
i envy those ppl whose parents pay for them..
i envy those ppl whose parents shop with them..
but now.....
i repented.....
i dun wana be a princess liao..
no longer spoilt brat...
i noe that daddy lurve me...
dun wana blame him anymore...
dun wana demand..
its time to grow up !!
wat i wan ... i muz save up & buy myself...
cannot rely on Him le..
its time for Him to rely on me...
but not all..
muz wait till i work..
but now.. 17 liao..
cannot everything also ask frm him..
get it myself..
he doesnt owe me anything..
but i pray that he will allow us to mit mummy
& also he will be fren with mummy....
dun wana cry for this family liao..
wana be strong~
God is with me !!
God is my family....
come on ppl...
appreciate ur family...
u cant afford to lose them..
i tot i can be use to the life w/o mummy...
but i am wrong..
i miss her...
i will tear when i tik of her...
but u have ur mummy at hm rite?
God wants us to shine in e family... =)
God.. i am in This !!!!